?

Log in

No account? Create an account
Errantry: Novak's Journal
...Words to cast/My feelings into sculpted thoughts/To make some wisdom last
Personal: More Busy-ness 
17th-Sep-2008 09:21 am
Tell me more....  June 2007
Yesterday was such a maddening day! I returned home by 2-something am from the previous night's late hours in the library only to find what sounded like a pleasant (but still too-loud) party going on in the apartment next to my bedroom,which kept me up for another hour or two, only to then be woken up by someone who thought pulling the building's fire alarm would be very funny at 8am. So as I joined the flood of residents heading down the stairs, I realized that I had left my backup hard drive sitting on my desk, next to my computer, along with my laptop in the other room. I had been meaning to leave the backup hard drive at Dan and Amy's for safekeeping for a long time, but kept forgetting to do that, and now I was going to see all the copies of my dissertation and files go kablooie because I had forgotten to grab the thing along with my pants. Fortunately, the alarm turned out to be the idiot prank that it was. And things went chaotic and downhill from there. Laundry finally had to be done as I was down to wearing old coats and shower curtains. A long phone call from a friend in a hard place, more material to be written up for the professors writing job recommendations for me – it kept me going for the whole day.

A few of these job applications require my undergraduate transcripts as well as my graduate ones, and those came in the afternoon mail. It was kind of fascinating to read through my undergraduate transcript again for the first time in years, probably since I applied to Marquette. I had forgotten some of the details, and there was a class or two that I was no longer even sure who had taught it, along with evidence of decisions I could not remember making, like why it was that I did my first semester of Intermediate German and then took the second semester not the following spring, but the spring after that. Similarly, as I was writing up histories of my work for the professors writing for me, I was going back through my files to fill in those details, seeing papers I had forgotten that I'd written, and being really intrigued and impressed by some of the things I had written. Because of the specific information having leaked out of my head, I couldn't write these same papers today, and so they sounded extra-smart to me, which is a kind of silly feeling when you're reading yourself.
Comments 
17th-Sep-2008 03:50 pm (UTC)
I was going back through my files to fill in those details, seeing papers I had forgotten that I'd written, and being really intrigued and impressed by some of the things I had written. Because of the specific information having leaked out of my head, I couldn't write these same papers today, and so they sounded extra-smart to me, which is a kind of silly feeling when you're reading yourself

I had exactly the same feeling when I decided to mine my Masters thesis for test question ideas earlier this year. I constantly feel as though I'm learning so much, improving in thinking and analysing and writing - and then I read back and think 'wow, that was very insightful' and wonder if I've regressed since graduating!
19th-Sep-2008 06:14 am (UTC)
I know! I'm sort of amazed at how little it seems I can keep in my head (until I really teach something, I suspect). Today I was at a heavily-philosophical lecture (Dr. Gesche Linde, Goethe University, Frankfurt on "Science, Signs, and Theology: Theology's Place in the Modern Univesity") and since I'm doing work in a very different area right now, I was very conscious of having to mentally "shift gears" in order to be able to try to follow what was doing as she spoke about the American philosopher Charles Stanley Peirce's conception of human cognition as offering something to understanding science and theology as two equally-legitimate modes of thought.

Even at the doctorate level, I do not often have to work at the highest levels of thinking in my own field. I wonder what it would be like to be working in that mode continually. Maybe when I get to the point of teaching doctoral students I will have more of a chance to linger and develop in such capacities. But yes, in the meantime, it's startling to see evidence of my having been there at one time or another!
This page was loaded Jul 17th 2018, 3:44 pm GMT.